Lee's World

I don't know why today I feel very lonely. I think I may need someone to talk and share everything with. But how can I find that person if I don't open my heart??? It is the conflict in myself... need someone... not open my heart to learn anyone...

 

I would like to have a normal life soooooo much... Need to be happy again...

 

The best time in my life is when I was in Exeter and have my best friends, Reto + Matt + June.... I miss them...

 

I think I did many things wrong since I came back from Exeter, I wish I could turn back the time...

This month will be half year. Since everything begin and don't know when it will be stop. Sometimes it's just like a dream but it's real. The complicated life. I just want my normal life back. When I would like to stop everything, why doesn't want me to leave? Why do I have to be in this situation?

Yesterday I had talked to him already. He said the girl who came to the office was just would like to give him a document. He asked her father to recommend him coz he would like to study a special class. He said it was nothing between he and she. I don't know if I should believe him or not. However I will try to trust him again. I don't know how long I can be in this situation...

Yesterday April 17, 2007 was a really bad day for me.

 

The first thing was my ex-boyfriend deleted me from his hi5. I thought because of he would like to delete me from his Top 6 but he doesn't know how to do. Then he deleted me from being in his friends list. However even he deleted me from his friends list, I am still be in his Top 6.

 

The second thing, my boss blaimed me that I will quit coz managing director will quit... so bad.

 

The third thing, the man, I talked with brought another woman came to office, sooooo shock!!!!!! It is totally bad for me!!!!! Then I decide to quit. I think it will be good.

 

Hope the bad things will disappear soon...................... Wish me luck.........................

During the long weekend, I went to Hua Hin. This is the first time that I went outside Bangkok without my family. It was a very nice holiday. I was there for 4 days 3 nights. I stayed at Dusit Resort Hotel. The room is beautiful and the service is really great. We swam in the swimming pool but we took the pictures at the beach too. The time passed very quick. The day that we had to come back, we just would like to extend the time to be there. It is very wonderful. Hope I can have such an experience like this again. :)

During Songkran Festival in Thailand, 13 April, we had a long weekend from 13-16 Apil. Many people went to celebrate the festival at the tourist place such as Kao-San street, Chiang Mai, etc. But I went to my friend's brother's house. I was there with many friends. I had a happy time there. They are so nice, my friends and their families. Thank you everyone who made my Songkran day to be the happiest day. :D

Last time I wrote I was stolen my mobile on February 18, 2006. This time I would like to tell you that another bad luck comes to me that is I drove Honda to work and my car was upside down. My car was destroyed but I survived. Everyone think I have to be in ICU or die because they saw the car. But I survive this is the only lucky that I have. Maybe another bad luck that is coming to me is I am loosing one of my friend... I would like to tell that friend, I miss you... Anyway I also miss all of my friends too.

Last Saturday, Feb 18th, I lost my mobile. I was talking with my friend in front of the restaurant, Connection locates at Narathivat-Ratchanakarin, the theif came from the back of me and his hand came in front of my head and took the mobile from my hand. It was too terrible. I was shock until fainted. Now I cannot walk very well because while I was fainted, I fell down really hard (from the telling of my friends). My friends, please tell me your mobile number again so I will have your mobile number again. Thank you my friends and good bye my lovely mobile...

I had the bad valentine day. I had a problem. My important friend told me I have a bad behavior that is I look down at the others. He judges me from being with me only 2 weeks. He doesn't know me at all and he decides I am the person like that. Do you think I look down at the others? Do you think I like to blaim the others? Ok, sometimes I blaim something but it doesn't mean I really mean it. I just say and finish but he thinks I really mean for that words. What should I do? I will think before I say coz I don't know who will think about my words again. I will be careful with my words. I wish everything will be better than this.

 

"ความรักครั้งนี้ทำให้เราได้เรียนรู้มาก เพราะเริ่มมองอนาคตจริงจังและซีเรียสกับความรัก ดูแลทุ่มเทเพื่อเค้าทุกอย่าง บอกกับตัวเองว่านี่คือคนสุดท้ายที่เราจะรัก และคิดว่าเค้ารักเรามาก แต่ถ้าวันหนึ่งคนเราจะเปลี่ยนไป มันก็เป็นเรื่องที่ช่วยไม่ได้จริงๆนะ"

 

"พอเราเสียใจหรือน้อยใจ เค้าก็จะเข้ามาปลอบว่า ไม่มีอะไรนะ เขาเหมือนเดิมกับเรา"

 

"ทั้งๆที่เรามีคนมาจีบเยอะ แต่เราให้ความมั่นใจกับเค้าคนเดียว กลับกลายเป็นว่า เรามีค่าในสายตาคนอื่นมากมาย แต่ดูไม่มีค่าในสายตาเขาเลย" 

 

"จากที่เคยทรีตเราเหมือนเป็นเจ้าหญิง แต่วันหนึ่งเราดันตอบตัวเองไม่ได้ว่าเราเป็นอะไรในสายตาของเขา"

 

"การมีความพอดีระหว่างกัน ต่างคนต่างชอบในสิ่งที่ตัวเองทำทั้งคู่ การคบกันเลยไม่น่ารำคาญ"

 

"ระหว่างทางแห่งรัก สิ่งหนึ่งที่จะทำให้เข้าใจอย่างถ่องแท้คือความเจ็บ ถ้าเรามีความเจ็บ ความเสียใจ เราต้องแก้มันให้ตก แล้วต้องผ่านมันไปให้ได้ เป็นบททดสอบก่อนเราจะไปถึงเส้นชัย พอเราไปถึงได้โดยดี เราก็จะได้ลิ้มรสอันหอมหวานของ..รักแท้"

 

"การที่เราให้ความรักผู้ชายมากๆ บางครั้งเค้าอาจไม่ต้องการก็ได้ เพราะเค้าต้องการเวลาหายใจหายคอ มีชีวิตเป็นของตัวเอง เราต้องเบรกตัวเองและถอยหลังออกมา"

 

"ชีวิตคู่ต้องคำนวนตลอดเวลาว่า เราใส่ตรงนี้มากไปรึเปล่า ตรงนี้น้อยไปรึเปล่า เราต้องตอบคำถามตัวเองให้ได้ว่า ความสมดุลในชีวิตคืออะไร"

 

"เราอยู่บนพื้นฐานของความจริงที่ว่า สุดท้ายชีวิตคือการพลัดพราก เพราะฉะนั้นมีอะไรเราพูดกันตั้งแต่วันนี้ ไม่เคยรอถึงวันพรุ่งนี้ คิดอะไรได้ทำเลย จะพูดอะไรก็พูดเดี๋ยวนั้นเลย ชีวิตมันสั้นค่ะ"

 

"ถ้าอยากให้ความรักหวานชื่นได้โดยปราศจากบุคคลที่สาม เราก็ต้องฝึกฝนเรื่องความซื่อสัตย์"

 

"เมื่อมีปัญหามากๆ เราไม่มองให้เห็นว่าเป็นเรื่องแย่ แต่คิดว่าเป็นบททดสอบ แล้วเราก็ผ่านมันมาได้แต่ละขั้น"

 

"ความรักคือการอดทนอย่างเข้มข้น"

 

"รักแท้ต้องมีอุปสรรค"

 

 

 

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"ลบลาย คาสโนวา", ชญาดา มัสยวาณิช

Today is my Birthday. Now I am one more year older. I wish I will have good friends and good colleague, I think now I have good friends and good colleague already, thanks god.  Today in the morning I went to get pray from the monks for good luck, at lunch I went to celebrate with my family, and at night I will join the wedding party with my brother. I think today is a good day and I wish this year will be the best year for me. I wish I can have a good friends, good job, and good boyfriend (I wish I will have one). I also would like to send all the best to all of my friends!! Happy birthday to me!!

Hello my friends,

 

During this time, I am very busy from working. Because the new year is coming then I have to go out to send the good wish to my clients. I like this time a lot because I won't be free. Enjoy Enjoy!!

 

 

Tomorrow is New Year party for my office. I have to dance with my colleague to show all staffs. I don't want to dance!! Someone please help me....

 

In my office, we play Buddy. I have to prepare the thing to my buddy. The game is when I give the present, I have to hide it then my buddy won't know who give it. My buddy will know tomorrow that who give the present to her everyday. I think I will go to buy some present for her tonight coz tomorrow is the last day that we will play. Then I have to give her the big present. I hope she will like the things that I had given to her.

 

Today I listen to the radio, the DJ said "True love is difficult to find but keeping the love is more difficult."

What do you think about that idiom?

For me, ........ can't tell. It is my secret ;P

Today at KTAM in my department has something strange. Last friday my colleage told us to dress formally then we all just wondered what happen but she said only we would know later. I don't know what happen to us... I will tell you more when I know everything

Last week I went to check my tooth. At first I thought the new tooth will come up that I had to have the surgery to get it off. But when I went to the hospital, the dentist said I took it off last year already and this time I hurt because of my gum was scrashed... I tried to find the reason, finally I found that it was because of my new toothbrush. I bought it coz I liked the color... Till now I know that I could not like everything from the appearance (Do I mean something else than toothbrush??) :D

 

Now I got a cold and my desk at the office is under the air condition...Too bad... I want to be well as quick as possible... :(

 

I miss you all my friends